Monday, May 01, 2006

Making Magic

I'm experimenting with how the language I use effects my attitude to things.

So I'm substituting the word "work" for the word "magic"

Let's see what happens.

Project updates

• I'm shooting the final two days of my latest short film in the middle of may. There are script adjutments to make, schedules to create, extras to find. Also right now I have no money for the shooting days. I will manifest £800 by the 12th May and £3,000 by the end of the month.

• I'm reading about picasso as research for my first feature script. What a man!

• Next week I will braodcast my first online radio show. Details to follow.

A little lost, but looking

As I was lying next to my daughter's cot last night waiting for her to sleep, I had a thought that was simultaneously fear inducing and encouraging.

"In a hundred years, we'll probably both be dead"

At that point who will know of us, who will care about us and how we lived?

My daughter is 17 months old and the thought of her growing up, growing old and dying is somewhat challenging. Right now she a tottering, burbling, laughter inducing little person whom needs me and her momma to survive, but soon she and the world will move on and my role will change.
I see the same in the world around me. As I look up from my desk to the wall of my in front of me, I see constellations of little pieces of paper, each has words typed or written upon it, these words relate to things I have to do/want to do, projects I am undertaking (what is it with projects these days, everybody has projects. I'm not sure my parents have ever had a project in their lives. I must ask them), ways of being etc etc.
If I am present to my impending death and disappearance from the 'relevent to the world' file, are these day to day, year to year aims in my life easier, harder or just irrelevant?
The answer thta comes to mind is that it doesn't mean anything and there is no authentic reason to be scared of creating. So day to day and year to year I will have success and failure, but within the bigger context of a world full of understanding and passion, none of us can lose.

Declaration of Principles

I hereby declare that in the pages of this blog I will:

• Share boldly and openly my journey from Genius in Waiting to recognition, success and wealth.

• Encourage others to find, accept and express their own genius.

• Champion the genius of humanity, ponting out it's success and failure, and offering my own views on the ways forward.

• Be humourous and serious, as and when necessary.